Excuse Me While I Indulge Myself…

Spoiler alert: those of us who hit publish publish on the web are self-indulgent. In fact, by the time that I post this piece1, I will be committing a massive act of self-indulgence.

Now, there are probably two kinds of readers2, those who create and those who don’t. Those who don’t are probably nodding their heads in agreement. Those of you who blog, write, paint, sing, act or put anything out into the world are defending this as a creative endeavor, an attempt at some kind of art. Good news and bad news… both parties are 100% right.

Every attempt at art begins with hundreds, if not thousands of self-indulgent acts. It takes a certain lack of self-consciousness and a health3 dose of self-confidence to think that the words coming out of your mouth or your hands matter. That they will have any value whatsoever to others4.

It doesn’t matter if your end game is helping others. It doesn’t matter if you are only writing to figure things out for yourself. You still have to go through the process of finding your voice5. More often than not, that means sharing a tremendous amount of self-indulgent crap with the world until something meaningful eeks its way out of you. It takes time, it takes dedication and it takes a significant amount of insanity to keep at it.

When someone tells you that you are being narcissistic (and someone6 will…) remember two things. 1) They’re right 2) Every piece of art began, as an unmitigated act of self-indulgence.

Thanks for indulging me as always. Hope you stick around and be sure to let me know if anything useful ever slips out.

  1. As well as every time I’ve posted one before  

  2. Or more likely none…  

  3. Read: Unhealthy  

  4. And more often than not, they probably wont.  

  5. And if you are one of the lucky few that didn’t have to struggle to find it, screw you, I’m not talking to you…  

  6. And by someone, I mean everyone.  

6 Responses to Excuse Me While I Indulge Myself…

    • And just to be clear, I don’t see that as a bad thing. The most helpful blogs that I read are the ones where they clearly care about the audience, but they are writing straight from the heart.

    • Thanks man! Sometimes we are more self-indulgent than we mean (and again, by we, I mean me :) ), but it’s the only way we manage to keep putting crap out there!

      Appreciate the heads up and hopefully I manage to do that again sometime soon!

    • Glad I get to be there at the start of the day and hope that second gear proved useful! I’m with you. As long as something is left behind at the end of the day and as long as it is at least trying to get better, I think it is all good. Thanks for the undeserved admiration! Hope to warrant it one day!

  1. Hi, Michael, I like your ramblings, and thanks to the time difference in Europe what a nice way to start the day and put the brains in 2nd gear! If self-indulgence leads to creating anything, that is fine with me, also fine with me (understated) if more than 1 reader finds it useful or meaningful. A dedicated and insane admirer

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